I have three different friends who are on my mind today. They know who they are. They are all struggling with totally different aspects of the infertility journey: medical complications, early desires for children, considering moving to adoption . . .
All of these have such emotional baggage attached to them. All of them hurt so badly. All of them are things I so want to fix but have no power over. I know prayer works. But when all I can do is pray, sometimes I am left feeling so helpless. I want to fix it. I don't want them to hurt like I did for five years. I feel guilty that I have two boys. Why do I have two boys and they have none? Why can't the world just be fair?
If you think of it, please say a prayer for my three friends today. I won't share their names, but trust me in that they covet your prayers immensely. Pray for peace. Pray for direction. Pray for strength. Pray for wisdom. Pray for guidance. Pray for comfort. And pray that the Lord gives them the desire of their heart: a child to join their loving family.
If you could stop, right now, while you are reading this, and spend thirty seconds in prayer for these three women and the many other women reading this blog who are with them on this difficult journey, I would greatly appreciate it. I am realizing that my heart will never be far away from this topic. It is so close to my soul and I feel it so deeply despite the fact that my journey is not nearly as intense as it once was.
Thanks everyone.
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I said mine.
Wow-hard stuff. I thank God the world is not "fair," but it is good because He is in control, not us. As July approaches, I ache for my first and last children-one died that month, and the other was due. Lord, in Your mercy, be near to these hurting hurts and cover them with the shadow of Your wings.
Amen. Come, Lord Jesus!
Why do I have two boys and they have none? Why can't the world just be fair?
Wen, I struggle with the same thing. I still have a few friends (although the list is dwindling) that do not have kids yet or have lost pregnancies. I have a hard time being in that helpless zone. I suddenly understand being on "the other side" and the frustration it brings.
Praying now...
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