... saying good bye.
Today I said good bye to my JB ... again.
I cried a little as he boarded the rotator and headed back to Turkey. Just so tired of saying good bye. So tired of him having to say good bye to me. To say good bye to his boys.
But I was comforted by the fact that Joni is still here with me ... at least for a few more days. And comforted by the fact that this may be the last time JB and I will say good bye for quite some time. If everything goes according to plan, he will fly back here a few days before my scheduled c-section. And then, if Abigail's passport comes in in time, we will fly as a family back to Turkey on a scheduled rotator.
Obviously I cannot control the uncontrollable. If there is one thing I have learned in five years of infertility and a begun international adoption and a finished domestic adoption and two out-of-the-blue pregnancies, and coming to Germany a month earlier than I planned, it is that.
I ... am ... not ... in ... charge.
I cannot control Abigail deciding to come earlier than scheduled section date. I cannot control how quickly couriers and paper-pushers turn around a passport for an infant.
But I can pray. That's all I can do. (And hope and dream and wish a little bit as well.) If you could join me in prayer that things will come together. In prayer that JB can be here for the delivery of his first daughter. Join me in prayer that Abigail's passport comes back in a timely manner. Join me in prayer that both she and I are healthy and can return to Turkey promptly.
Lotsa prayers requested here. Thanks for being a part of my prayer team.
6 comments:
I have been praying for you. We went through a tough time when my 4th child was born. I was in the hospital 2 weeks before he came and almost a week after he was born. He was in the hospital for a month due to being 8 weeks early. I know it tough not to have the whole family together believe me. I cried so many tears! Now I look back to 6 months ago and think a couple of months was so worth having our safe healthy little boy even though I thought our lives were a mess with all the running back and forth to Rochester. I will never forget all the wonderful doctors and NURSES up there! So just to let you know from experience that life will get better and "normal" again! Good luck to you all!
Of course, prayers being sent your way....
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Hi Wendi,
I'm keeping you and Abigail in my prayers for a safe and healthy delivery!
Kelly
Sending lots of prayers your way!
dear niece,
i love you so much.
i love the gift of prayer and knowing the throne room is wide open to us thru Christ to come to Him and say, Daddy! to the Creator of this Universe who knows each cell in my body, who formed that little girl in your womb, who delights in you so much...He will never forsake those who seek Him...I am praying with you and part of your team! Not on here very much lately but still with you in prayer and peek in when i can xoxo Tante Jan
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