Saturday, February 28, 2009
I am quite disappointed, but I am not going to be able to go to the race tomorrow. I was planning on going and taking both the boys, but it is going to be very cold (for these parts.) Thirties overnight and only into the forties by the time the race starts. And with windchill and wind speeds, it's going to be an absolutely miserable race morning for a mom and two young babies. I really want to see JB cross the finish line, but you have to park your car and shuttle in which means I'll be forced to be outside, in the cold, with both children, for over three hours. I'd be forced to breastfeed outside in that cold as well! Both JB and I think it is better that we stay home. Bummer!
I am contemplating attempting to go to church by myself tomorrow morning. I'll see how courageous I am come morning time and how I am feeling. I know there would be plenty of people willing to help me once I arrive if one boy or the other is having a difficult morning. Our church has the children stay in the service during worship. This wasn't a real issue when it was just Isaac and he was little. The kid was the quietest kid ever. But now that he is older and babbling, and now that he has a little brother who doesn't think quiet is nearly as important, it's a whole new ball game! After worship, Isaac heads to nursery, and Elijah stays with me. I can listen to service from inside or I can go to a nursing mother's room where there is a speaker for you to hear the service.
Speaking of my health, today, officially marks four weeks since my c-section. This is the date my doctor releases me from some of my restrictions. I am now allowed to drive! It would seem terribly frustrating to not be able to drive, but quite honestly, there haven't been too many places I wanted to go, and we've had a guest here the whole time that was able to do the driving for me if I did want to go somewhere.
I am also now able to lift my Isaac. I realized that I misread Dr. G's note at his doctor's appointment. He is not 29 pounds but 22. Still too much for me to carry around until today. I am still supposed to "only carry when necessary" which means in and out of the crib, up and off of the changing table, in and out of the car, but it still feels so good to be able to pick him up when he crawls over to me, grabs onto my pants, stands up, and holds his arms up wanting Mommy! I really missed being able to hold him.
I still have another two weeks before I am able to go for walks, walk the dog, vacuum (shucks!), or do any really strenuous activities. I am really starting to look forward to being able to go on a walk with all my boys, stop at the bay, and maybe even take a trek to the park. I know it will be quite some time before I am able to run again, but walking will suit me just fine.
I feel like I am currently operating at about 80-85% of my full capacity. I still have some GI issues that have been plaguing me and the area surrounding my incision is still a bit sensitive and limiting, but otherwise, I am doing really well! The improvement since I have come home is amazing, and I look forward to seeing where I am in one more month's time.
JB and I actually signed up yesterday for the Eglin AFB Gate to gate 4.4 mile run/walk on Memorial Day, May 25th. JB has signed up to run it. I have signed up to walk it. Anyone interested in joining me? It's a 4.4 mile walk from one the east gate of Eglin AFB to the west! JB has also signed up for a mini triathlon in June. I was thinking I'd like to do it with him, but we just aren't sure I'll be ready for that yet even though the bike, run, and swim are all fairly short distances that most people should be able to do without intensive training. At least the boys and I will be able to watch him participate!
All right. Time to get some stuff done around the house while Isaac is gone. It is amazing how different the house feels when just one of my little guys isn't here. Totally changes everything!
Joia has such patience when taking pictures! Isn' this a great shot? It's funny because the one thing I told JB I wanted Elijah to get was JB's feet. Mine are so long and veiny and gangly. It appears however that our boy inherited my long feet and toes.
I love this picture! I don't love that Elijah is crying, but take a look at the paws that have jumped over the backside of the couch. This photo paints a prefect portrait of our puppy. He has to be in the middle of EVERYthing.
Keenan having a talk with Elijah. "What are your intentions for my sister, dude?" This pic also shows how long Elijah is even though he is over a month younger than Moriah.
The photographer (and her in-awe subject)!
Friday, February 27, 2009
I remember when we moved to Eglin last summer, I saw this park and the waterpark that accompanies it and said outloud to JB that it was a shame we'd never have a child we could take to play there during our three years on base. What a blessing that we'll be able to watch our little Isaac play there all because Bri chose us to be his Dad and Mom! Adoption rocks!
Here's some photos from our excursion:
They have this really cool super big swing that you can sit in WITH your child! How cool is that?! It's way comfortable and Isaac liked it best of all!
Thursday, February 26, 2009
We said good bye this morning to our great friends Dave & Lesley. They are headed back to their real lives in good ol' Rochester. Tara and her boyfriend Shomir are coming in a week from today followed by my Mom.
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
The sad times however include saying good bye to Joan who left early this morning to return to Fort Lauderdale. I feel so blessed that she chose to give up a week of her life to help us here on Eglin. We were so amazingly fortunate to have her here with us. Roy, Joan & Bri have always been a second family to me and our relationship has grown even stronger by the love we all share for Isaac (and Elijah!)
Today we took Dave & Lesley to Destin for lunch -- my second outing since becoming a mom to two boys. We are now enjoying some American Idol while JB cooks us all a seafood dinner. Lesley took more pictures than I did so hopefully I can snag them from her (or direct you to her blog when she posts them) to share.
P.S. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM K.!
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Joan had shared a devotional passage with me from one of Charles Stanley's publications early on in her visit to Eglin. I have found many scriptures that have brought me comfort in the course of our journey to parenthood, but I don't remember ever having read this scripture:
2 Cor 1:3-4 "Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God."
How have I missed these verses for all these years?!
I can vividly remember walking out of a public restroom stall during an especially painful time of our infertility journey. I don't remember exactly where I was or exactly which bad news we had just received. But I do remember shutting that bathroom stall door, putting my face in my hands, and sobbing. I remember telling the Lord, "That's it! That's enough pain! I now feel like I have experienced enough pain to understand it and provide understanding to others."
Looking back, I can now see that I didn't possibly have enough understanding to relate to the plight of others on this journey. God needed me to have more. He needed me to really go into the valley so that I could truly understand the hurt people feel when they are there. Being in the valley is horrible. It hurts so badly. But he needed me to be there so I could understand what it felt like.
That pain has allowed me not only to be there for new friends like Becky as they travel the road we just travelled. It is a pain that transcends infertility and moves into many other realms. I remember the divorce of another dear friend. As I sat in my living room crying with her, I remember feeling like I understood exactly what it felt like to have a dream ripped out from underneath you. She had so many thoughts and plans and hopes for her life. What did she do with those dreams that would never come true? I didn't understand what divorce felt like. But I did understand what the loss of a dream and the grief that accompanies that loss feels like. That I understood.
Here is the devotional in its entirety. I pray it ministers to you as it has to me.
Job asked a challenging question in his time of suffering: "Shall we indeed accept good from God and not accept adversity?" (Job 2:10). Even hardship has a place in the Lord's plan.
During a particularly painful time in my life, I decided that I ought to glean something from my distress. That decision allowed the Lord to open up a well of compassion in my heart that I often dip from to comfort those facing similar trials.
I found great solace in Paul's words about God, who "comforts us in all our affliction so that we will be able to comfort those who are in any affliction" (2 Cor 1:4). Think about the kind of people you seek out when you feel hurt. You want someone who has felt your pain, right? A person who's walked the path we find ourselves on can understand our suffering and provide wise counsel. According to the apostle, passing through a "valley experience" prepares us to be a blessing and encouragement to those who must go through something similar later. What's required is that we accept the adversity He has placed in our way and choose to learn from the situation.
God is the Lord and Master of our life, and He therefore has the right to use us as comforters and encouragers to those in our sphere of influence. As His servants, we must be willing to receive whatever training is necessary to complete His will, even when it hurts. Do not waste your suffering! Instead, use it to bring glory to the Lord.
Monday, February 23, 2009
And here is a flashback to little Isaac on his first Sunday in the same outfit:
Sunday, February 22, 2009
I am proud tot say that we successfully made it to church this morning. Not only did we make it, but we made it on time (I hate to be late for anything), had Elijah fed right before we left so he didn't need to eat until we got home, had Isaac's first nap completed and a bottle prepared for him to drink before worship, and had everything we needed packed in the diaper bag. Our only "lesson learned" in this new terrain of two babies was that Isaac will need a separate diaper bag so that we can leave a bag with him when we bring him to his class (which he loves!) after worship is over. We put all their stuff in one bag without thinking about the fact that Isaac would be in a separate location.
I'm not one of those sentimental moms who gets all goo-goo over memories, but it was fun to have Elijah wear the same outfit to church for his first Sunday that big brother wore just nine months ago. Normally I am not sure I'd remember a detail like this, but when it hasn't even been a year, your mind is still fresh! How has Isaac grown up so fast?! Not only that but little Elijah, whom I'm falling head over heels for even more with every passing day and longer stretch of sleep, is now nearing a month old as well. Slow down guys!
It was great to be back at church. We truly love the people that make up the congregation. It has been many weeks since we have seen many of them and we truly missed all the smiling faces of kids and adults. Crossway is full of truly amazing people that we are very lucky to know.
Tonight JB is treating Joan to her favorite -- Indian food -- and we have invited Becky, whose husband John is on a mission trip to Peru, to join us. Joan is treating us to a special dessert as well! My sweet tooth disappeared for a bit but is back with a vengeance! Joan promises me this dessert has chocolate in it so I am pumped!
Our Scrubby has a favorite spot in our living room -- the perfect place to guard our home from squirrels and foxes and garbage trucks and little kids with bookbags. Recently, Isaac decided that he had equal fascination with the window spot. And Scrubs has willingly agreed to share the spot with his chubby pack member.
Saturday, February 21, 2009
Friday, February 20, 2009
Joan feeding Ipod.
Isaac is introducing himself to the toy that his birthmom Bri sent for him. He loves it Bri! Thank you so much!