So good to be home

We are back on good ol' Eglin AFB. It feels so wonderful to be home. Being as Isaac has his days and nights mixed up, the drive here was amazing. He slept nearly all 600 miles. We only had to make two stops for about 45 minutes each time for a change/eat/burp session. He did wonderfully.

When we got home, I was so excited to see that I finally got to be one of the houses with a sign in the front yard. Look what the wifia put up outside our door!


The decorations didn't stop on the outside. They had put up this sign and gotten me my favorite: Tulips for Mother's Day with a "Happy Mother's Day" balloon. Honestly, I cannot express how blessed I am to have these wonderful women in my life. They have been my rock during our year here. I truly feel that they are family to me. Thank you girls!

We got home around 5pm. Scrubs was ecstatic to see us but surprisingly, fell asleep mere moments after we walked in the door. I read the note from Jodi to find out she had taken him to play Frisbee just thirty minutes before we got home. He was plum tuckered out!

Jodi had made us a WONDERFUL dinner of baked spaghetti, salad, and bread. In addition, Joia had left her awesome Butterfingers dessert. What a blessing this was.

Since coming home, Scrubs has been amazing with his new pack member. He mainly sits by me or the pack-n-play, which is currently "home base" just watching. The first time Isaac cried, his ears perked up so high, but now, he has become used to it and doesn't seem fazed. We are also allowing Scrubs to choose where he will sleep at night. We think he is old enough and this allows him to make his every-other-hour checks of me and Isaac before returning to his couch to sleep. Here are a few photos taken early this morning.

My heart is so full right now. Full of appreciation for all the people who have loved, encouraged, prayed, and blessed us during the last five years of infertility and the last year as we prepared for Isaac. Full of emotions I cannot put into words for the gift we have been given by two young people ten hours away. It still feels as if I am floating above these events, watching from afar, waiting for the moment that I wake up and realize it isn't real.

I also find it difficult to admit that my life, and this blog, will transition. For so long I was the one watching as everyone else came home with their babies, sad when the blog I read became a place that could hurt my heart sometimes. Now I know that my blog is one of those blogs. It is a place that some people may no longer be able to visit as pictures of Isaac grace its pages. I know this is part of the seasons of life, but I still don't know how to make sense of all this. I'm still trying to process it all. I know his story makes it less painful to infertile women reading -- knowing that he was a gift of another sort -- but it still means I am leaving so many women behind. I am so sorry for that but yet so happy all at the same time. I am sure I will process this more as time passes.

For now, I am just enjoying this amazing moment of my life. I do not know if I will ever bring a newborn through our doors again so I am treasuring every moment and learning to process all the new emotions. JB is home with us for a few days. He has to work on Thursday and Friday and will then have the weekend off before starting nights on Monday. Having JB here with me means the world to me.

And of course, more to come ...