Learnings

I've learned a lot this week. Like what?

Like the fact that I can truly pour out my heart before God as it says in Psalm 62:8. "Trust in him at all times: ye people. Pour out your heart before him: God is a refuge for us."


Like the fact that the best while I am seeking help for myself, I can be providing comfort and love to others. I think "The Prayer of St. Francis" says it best:

The prayer of St. Francis



Lord, make me an instrument of your peace,
Where there is hatred, let me sow love;
where there is injury, pardon;
where there is doubt, faith;
where there is despair, hope;
where there is darkness, light;
where there is sadness, joy;
O Divine Master, grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to console;
to be understood as to understand;
to be loved as to love.
For it is in giving that we receive;
it is in pardoning that we are pardoned;
and it is in dying that we are born to eternal life.

And like the fact that my current struggles may not be about me at all! Isaiah 48:10-11 says, "See, I have refined you, though not as silver; I have tested you in the furnace of affliction. For my own sake, for my own sake, I do this. How can I let myself be defamed? I will not yield my glory to another."
 
Amen to that.
 
Another learned fact? I can turn my intense guilt into positive statements. For instance, when I am feeling guilty about spending time with the boys and leaving Abigail in the house with Veronica, I can say, "Isn't it nice that I get to spend this time with just my boys," instead of thinking, "I should be spending more time with Abigail." I plan to work on this throughout the week.
 
I am feeling sooooo much better everyone! I am seeing a light at the end of the tunnel Praise the Lord!