I am asking again for prayer my children, but especially my Sidge. He is simply having a very difficult time right now. Obviously, we can't be sure it is all move-related, but from what I've been educated about regarding children and huge life changes, and what my friends have witnessed in their own children, we know this is probably a huge part of it. There are probably other things at play as well but this is probably a key component.
He doesn't mention moving but is so emotionally plagued with dark and bothersome thoughts. He is verbally sharing everything, which is good, but what he is saying is so hard for a mom to hear. It makes me cry frequently simply with a heart so heavy for my sweet little Sidge. He truly doesn't even resemble the child he was a month ago. Last night I just laid with him while he slept and laid my hands on him and prayed for him ... I know The Lord was listening.
Of course JB is very knowledgable about children and their health. He wants us to spend at least two to three solid weeks keeping his world very small, avoiding meeting or being with tons of new people and developing and continuing our family routine. After that, we'd consider reaching our for medical help. We need to get things consistent and routine and not ask him to do more than he is mentally able and see if keeping his world very small will help. He keeps asking how long we will be here, if this is his new house, etc. We are striving to make this as permanent as we can, knowing we may only be here a year while we look for land.
If you could commit our little Sidge to your prayers, we would so covet those prayers. He is hurting so much and subsequently, so are the people who love him.
His awesome grandparents are planning to return to South Florida next week to tie up loose ends in South Florida. We aren't sure how long they will be gone, but we know this will be another change
for the kids.
JB doesn't start his new job for a month. He is on terminal leave which means he is still being paid by the Air Force for thirty more days. We are so glad he has this as we feel it will give us great time to adequately create a new life here for us and help the kids adjust to everything spiraling around them.
I don't mean to make things sound dramatic. I really simply feel this is our reality. I have always been big on being honest and real and asking for what we need.
In other news, our small shipment was supposed to arrive today and was delayed until Monday. This was great disappointing. However, we got word this morning that our storage items .... things we had the military store while we were in Turkey and the Azores ... was on its way. This was mostly random old books, china, and jJB's hunting stuff. But also included was our washer and dryer. Oh to do a load in am American washer!
However, the king-sized mattress we had been counting on totally disappeared from storage! We have to file a claim which doesn't do much good when all we wanted was a bed. Guess it is air mattresses for awhile longer!
We have been reached out to by a local pastor who is friends with the Stebbins family. They are coming by tonight with a folding table, chairs, a meal, and extra air mattresses!! In addition, my cousins Josh and Sarah are here to help us with things and another teacher from our high school has loaned us an air mattress.
Praising the Lord for his hands and feet on this Earth!