Somber

I am unable to say very much.

We just got word that the woman on our boat (please see previous post) passed away.

I am unable to say very much because I can´t figure out what to say. I am also unable to say very much because it appears that there will be a formal investigation of what occurred since this is an accidental death. JB and I were the two individuals with her from the moment she surfaced the water so apparently, I will be quite involved in any discussions. They have asked me not to say much more until that can be taken care of. At some point, I will share the whole story. I can say that she finished the dive successfully. The problems began to occur at the surface. Whatever happened was probably not related to a diving accident in the strictest sense of the word.

Needless to say, I do not plan to dive any more on this trip. I am shaken, confused, saddened, overwhelmed, and rehersing everything I did and said a million times.

I was the last person to talk to her alive.

She has two young sons.

The last thing she said to me was, ¨Could you please hold my hand again?¨

Your prayers for her family and all of us involved are greatly appreciated. As JB said, he and his peers are used to this sort of thing. They are, ironically, here for a Dive Medicine Conference -- a conference designed to teach doctors how to handle accidents related to diving.

Talk about firsthand experience.

I, however, am not used to this sort of thing. I have never seen someone die. I saw some things in Africa including people that had already died. But I have never watched someone die in front of me.

At some point, there will be a time, I´ll share more. For now, just pray. I was doing very well being away from the boys. But now, my heart aches for them. I want to enjoy the rest of our trip but am not exactly sure how to do so.

. . . more to come.