Okay, My Writing Stresses

Okay, so if you want an uplifting post, you may not want to read this today.

Okay, so JB is on overnight call. That's the first thing that is bothering me. I don't feel good (still got this head cold). My third major issue right now: my freelance writing is kinda stressing me out.

Okay, so give me a moment to share my woes with you. I don't feel well to call and talk to anyone (not that I do that very often), and I dont have the energy to type the story many times to various friends, so here is the source of my perplexion ...

Okay, here's the issue. One of the places that I freelance for has not paid me. Now, here's the thing, I am not sure that this is a real problem. This could mean 1 of 2 things.

The first is that it means nothing. They plan on paying me and just haven't yet. Emails exchanged during previous weeks indicated that this was an oversight and they definitely planned on coming through. They apologized repeatedly for the oversight and assured me it would be corrected.

However, this week, emails have not been returned and my website connection isn't working and this is what brings me to possibility #2. I am literally sick about this. They owe me close to $500 and quite honestly, if they go out of business, there is nothing I can do. I am really not worried about them just refusing to pay me as I have enough proof to get my money. However, I remember when JB was self-employed and one company he worked for went bankrupt. They had paid him a certain percentage up front and at the mid-way mark, but they still owed him over $2000, went bankrupt, and he was out of luck.

My husband is so sweet. I just talked to him on the phone from the hospital, and he was so encouraging of the situation. He said that if I don't get my money, it really isn't that big of a deal. I just don't get my money. "It's just money," he says. Then he says, "and we learn a lesson about being more on top of things." Then he says, "all you are out is a little time." (Approximately 25 hours).

I know he is right. It is just money, but I still just hate this feeling. Part of it is my fault, I kept working and didn't really pay attention to my checks coming in. I have so many different jobs, I very rarely even look at my paychecks. The company had two employees leave and my invoices were "misplaced."

This has led me to have concerns about my freelance writing. I just got another freelance job this week editing a thesis for a PhD candidate. If I am going to do this kind of work, in the end, there is always a chance that I can get screwed over. With this thesis candidate, I am charging for every ten pages completed. I complete ten pages, she writes me a check, and then we proceed with the next ten pages. However, even this isn't completely full-proof, and I could end up losing money or actually, losing time.

Okay, so I just wanted to share that with everyone. It really isn't that big of a deal, and in the end, life will go on just as it did yesterday, and goodness knows there are bigger problems in the world to be worried about, but, well, this is my little bothersome item at the moment.

Okay, so thank you for listening to my worries. I honestly would love, if you think of it, for you to pray that this is truly an oversight, and that my check will be in my mailbox tomorrow!