Ann Voskamp is amazing. This article was sent to me (passive voice ... sorry) by my friend Meredith. It really, nearly totally, summarizes, what I have gone through in my life. I didn't know it. Friends tried to tell me. But I couldn't see it. I was pushing too hard. What I have realized was, it wasn't actually the things I was doing so much as the emotional ENERGY I was putting into trying to make everyone around me happy. It's impossible. (Have you met a teenager?) I am not in charge of other people's happiness. Sounds super simple. But it was very complicated for me. I truly had to get to a point that my body said I WILL NOT DO THIS ANYMORE for me to listen.
And I am listening. So much in me is changing. It will be a beautiful change. But during the change, it is PAINFUL. It has been stuffed with anxiety and depression and exhaustion and barely feeling like I could take care of my family. But I am coming out on the other side. With Jesus. How do people live WITHOUT Jesus?
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