He is with me

So many times in my life, the Lord has walked me through dark places or deep valleys. Over and over and over again.

Why then, when I enter a new valley, do I forget that He is walking along side me, carrying me even? That He did it before. That He'll do it again.

While I am not totally over the early sickness of this pregnancy, the morning sickness has dissipated so tremendously. I have battled some down feelings that have too been dissipating. The last few days I have been feeling a lot of anxiety. I know all of this is related to hormones and morning sickness. I know the Lord is with me. I know He will walk through this with me too.

Or do I?

And yet, just like my own children, I cry and whine about the current place I am in. God oh God save me from this place right now. I act like He just didn't just show himself a few days or weeks or months or years earlier. I act like I deserve His immediate rescue from my current plight.

As Paul said in Phillipians 4: 12, "I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want."

I have no wants in my life. I really have no needs. I have been blessed beyond anything I could ask or think. And yet I still find myself asking Him for more. Lord, bring my heart peace and my life contentment today ... where I am.

Amen.