Learning a lot about TRUST

Oh boy, has this "dip" been a learning experience. I hate to think that more are coming in my future, but I am beginning to understand that I spent decades not really feeling. Now I am feeling and that means PAIN. And that pain means GROWTH. 

I'm growing. 

My anxiety tells me numerous things: 

You aren't good enough.

You need to hustle to prove yourself. 

You need to fear man. 

Someone not liking you will KILL you. 

If there isn't complete harmony, you can't be at peace. 

Pleasing man is WAY more important than God. 

Don't speak truth. Someone might not like it!

Don't risk someone upset at you. 

But my anxiety was trained to do this. And it was trained WRONG. Here's what I am learning to tell it instead:   

I am safe. 

People won't harm me. 

God is the most important. 

I can do hard things. 

God's truth is the most important thing. 

I won't die. 

I am worthy. 

I am worthy of more than people's crumbs. 

I am a really cool person!

Lot's of learning to reprogram my brain to believe these things. My wiring tells me otherwise. EMDR and working through the new things I am learning are telling me otherwise!