You’re Going to Make It

I feel like I am very close to capturing this people-pleasing idol and fully trusting God with my life and leaving behind the opinions of others. I’m not suggesting I’ll ever fully arrive of course, but this Lysa Terkeurst devotional from You’re Going to Make It really resonated with me … this is an idol in my life. I believe the depression circling me is facing the reality that I am not in control of people’s opinions.

I generally believed I was. I truly thought I could be so kind and giving and nice that no one would ever not like me. 

False. 

“And if they think poorly of us, we fear it will be impossible to feel good about ourselves.”

“Being too concerned with gaining the approval of others can give us divided hearts with God.”

If I set a boundary or share my true opinion, people will no longer see me as I want them to see me! Egads! This reality has really hit me. New Wendi can’t just people-please. She is not going to just say “yes” and smile and carry on. I may lose them knowing me as I want them to know me! And deep down, I need them to believe the best in me. 

And will I sacrifice my kids and husband and self for this monster?? I will NOT! I’m so close to figuring this out. I’m almost there. My brain is so close to closing in on this truth, and God needs me to get this.