Saturday, May 31, 2025

Still in Colombia

 

Our son #2 is still in Colombia. (That's him in the back corner/blue shirt -- tall kids always get relegated to the back unless they quickly squat and take a front row position.) We have not heard from him very much, but from the pictures we are receiving (from other people -- not him) I am assuming it is going well. 

Son #1 has been busy working at his job at Yoder's. We enjoyed having the Harrison's here, and Isaac hung out a lot with their two sons: Walker (17) and Wyatt (14). 

My girls had a wonderful time with their friends here with them. Ella (15) is Abigail's best friend, and Ezri, while younger than Hannah, matches with her really well. 

Still trying to find my footing from a really challenging two weeks, but I'm finding it. :)

Friday, May 30, 2025

365 Days of Rest #



It’s been a week for the record books so I’ve been carving out peace wherever I can find it. Abigail had a lock-in at ballet last night so I decided to spend the night at my empty parents’ house with Pomegranate. Got nine hours of much needed sleep and now I’m relaxing on the porch for the morning wake-up. 

Monday, May 26, 2025

More Colombia Pictures
















Turn Your Face / Face The Wind



Surrender is to hold everything with
open hands / open hearts / open expectations

patiently letting opportunities
pass through with the wind

Wait for the one that 
stays / loops around your fingers / holds on

Darling
Hold on

From the book: Chronic Defiance 


Saturday, May 24, 2025

Heavy

Life is heavy. 

I keep thinking: Okay, God, that's enough. No more. 

No more pain. 

Please. 

Why can't it be simple? Why so much HARD? When will the time to just peacefully BE ... be

Dear Jesus, let me just lay my head on your lap. May I see you in the midst of so much pain and so much suffering and know you are so real. I have spent so much of my life thinking I had to behave a certain way and pray a certain way in order to get you to love me a certain way. 

But I do NOT. 

I will instead, simply ... BE with Jesus. I will know that I don't have to check all the boxes to rest in Him. And I will trust that he indeed does hold the world in his hand and those I love in his hands and that He is with us always even to the end of the age. 

Come Dear Jesus. Come. Or if you don't come, could I not feel the pain I feel right now? The hardness? The sadness? The bigness of this world? Could I just be in my hammock in complete peace for a bit. 

This last year and a half has taken everything out of me to grieve. To grow. To start again. May I rest easy in who YOU ARE always. 

Amen.

Thursday, May 22, 2025

BSF

I had a wonderful time with my BSF ladies. This last weekend, four gals from out of town (Samirah from Raleigh, Joya from Michigan, Theresa from Ohio, and Kelly from Chicago) came in town to have a little get-together with me and Aunt Jan. There are about twenty women in this group, but only four could make it. However, four was the perfect number! We had an amazing time. I have more pictures to share but for now, here are pictures of the last night that they came in and John cooked an AMAAAAzzzzzing Mediterranean meal.

Gabe and Maryah also joined us for dinner.
Jan and Kelly
John telling everyone what this amazingness is
Just the appetizers
Samirah and Hannah got along so well.
John with Kelly
John with Joya, our BSF leader
Theresa and Samirah
Joya and Uncle Ed "Bapa"

Wednesday, May 21, 2025



If a child is being hit, yelled at, blamed or shamed, it is most nearly always not the child’s fault. It is the parents. 

5 Questions you can ask to help adjust disrespectiful behavior

1. "What's been the hardest part of your day or week? I really want to understand." This shows you really do care about them and creates a sense of safety.

2. "When you feel this way, how does it feel in your body?" This helps your child be aware of physical sensations and how they connect to their emotions in the moment. (Be patient if they say "I don't know.")

3. "Picture Jesus with you right now. What would He want to tell you about this?" Invite them into the truth of God's love and safety. (Time and repetition is important here -- especially if they are new to talking to God.)

4. "What do you wish I knew about how you're feeling right now?" Active listening makes the child feel seen and loved.

5. "IF you could change one thing about this situation, what would it be?" Let them know that their behavior can change and they are in the driver's seat of that change.)

Taken from rebecca.jo.grant on Instagram.


Monday, May 19, 2025

Eternal / Temporal



Lightning strikes somewhere
and we're mere mortals once more
This is tragedy's tongue

Our suffering made temporary
Our pain flashes by
Our God / eternal

Hope lends strength
And we cling to the impermanence of pain
Coupled with the promise of eternal glory

Trace the hurricane with your weary eyes
Learn to live and love within the storm
Even as pain fights you for ownership of every moment. 

The sharp bolt may never dissipate in this life
But the knife dulls over time
As you inch closer to the endless

Your moments are numbered
Decimals in light of eternity
Soon enough you too will be a memory


From the book: Chronic Defiance 


Thursday, May 15, 2025







Life has been ...

....

busy here.  I am on a New Member Committee so last week I made 18 phone calls to introduce ourselves and interview potential new members to our cooperative. We had a graduation, a graduation rehearsal, and a dinner for Tusculum supporting the memory of Chuck Bowlin. It was just a lot!

While school is mostly done now, little Pomegranate is still finishing up at the Kotynskis. She will be done at the end of the month. Our olders are mostly completely done although all of them will do math throughout the summer. 

Here is a little update on all of the kiddos: 

Isaac: Isaac is now 17 and is working at Yoder's almost 30 hours a week! It's a great job for him, and he seems to really enjoy it. I think it's fantastic that he can practice in an area like customer service as I think his life will involve a lot of "schmoozing" -- especially if he goes into the Arts. He is also still taking piano, voice, and guitar. Theater is mostly finishing up for the summer. He will be attending a theatre camp at Liberty University this summer with Randy Belt's (John's co-director at the ER) daughter Rylee. I am super excited for him. Generally, Isaac has become a pretty easy kid to parent. We had some challenging growing pains when he was 14-15, but mostly, now, he is enjoyable. He also has a girl that he likes :)

Elijah "Sidge": Sidge is 16. He still takes Karate two days a week. I think he will probably get his black belt by the time he graduates high school. He is working on the farm, hunting, and also working for other people (Daniel S., Aunt Betsy, Gabe, Grampa) sometimes. He is now driving as well which really helps here -- even though they share a vehicle. Sidge will be taking full-time college classes this fall which will be a very big change for him. His classes will be on Mondays and Wednesdays so he will have time to work on the farm and get some outdoor, hunting time in. While he does enjoy playing his allotted time of games on his phone each day (30 minutes), he is otherwise listening to hunting or some political podcasts (he likes Charlie Kirk) or reading. He is soon to leave for Columbia on a mission trip which is super exciting!)

Abigail: Abigail will turn 14 in July. She is still very involved in ballet. She probably is my least "liking" of school, and while she is a very good writer, doesn't even enjoy that all that much. She is really gifted with photography and spends time editing those items. She is going to be attending an overnight youth camp in Florida (WITHOUT her brothers as they have theater and mission trip). Abigail LOVES her friends and her social group (including a certain young man :) and is very intentional about her relationships -- something I never saw with the boys. 

Hannah: Hannah is 11 and as spirited, spunky, silly, and sweet as ever. She is just a spit-fire and so full of life. She loves ballet, and Ms. LoriAnn asked her to help at the princess and beginner camps this summer. She is super smart and schoolwork comes very easy to her. (If it doesn't, she can easily get frustrated as it isn't "normal" for something to feel hard.) She is very good on the farm as well, and if Sidge can't help us, Hannah is the next one in line to step in. She is the best cook and seamstress in our house and remains incredibly creative (and a bit messy :)

 

Tuesday, May 13, 2025