An Unexpected Announcement...

Hold onto your hats folks. This infertility blog from the freezing Polar North has moved to Turkey and has found that after one adoption and one pregnancy, there is more news to share.

Here we go.

We are pregnant.

Believe it or not, I think this pregnancy announcement comes with more emotional weight than Elijah's did. More emotions. The first announcement was only joy. It left me with no guilt. I did not feel badly telling my infertile friends of our news, although I still did it in a tender way. This was what all IF gals dream of -- a pregnancy after five years of trying! I had put in my time on the IF side after all. It was time to celebrate.

But to be pregnant, again? While incredibly excited and amazingly blessed, this message is given knowing that it will hurt people I love. They are not upset at me. But they are sad for themselves and the fact that while we will have three littles ones, they are still praying for just one. They question God's fairness. And to be honest, I do too. We have a few very close friends and family members still waiting on their miracle while we have three miracles.

I remember lying on the operating table for my fourth IVF and turning to my doctor. "I just want one!" I said to him. "Just one!"

So to have three?

I have spent days trying to formulate in my head how I will write the specific word on this blog yet again. It wasn't until a friend of mine emailed me the words below that I felt things had come into focus clear enough for me to write this blog. This friend has faced many losses. There are still no children in her home. She is waiting for God's perfect completion to her own story. And yet she had the ability to share the words above with me when I shared my news with her.

"I know it may seem random or unfair to you, but this IS God's design, His purpose. Therefore, it is not random or unfair, but His perfect will in His perfect way, in His perfect timing. The Lord has given you a unique gift of being able to communicate with others through your writing in a way that draws others to Him. The Lord is the author of your story, you are the teller. The Lord is writing your story for the display of His glory to draw others to Him and give encouragement to those who are hurting. Rest in His perfect will. You do not need to be fearful of hurting others, I really do believe this news will be an encouragement to many."

Bless you friend for helping me to tell people that JB and I are, in fact, pregnant. Again. Bless you for those words. It has stuck with me. This is our story. We are not the authors of this story. God is the Author of this story. God is in charge. All we can do is pray and praise and allow Him to guide our days.

We have received many questions in response to this news, which we have been sharing off-the-blog for a few weeks now. I will be back, soon, with answers to those questions. But for now, a huge hallelujiah for another life growing inside me.

We confirmed today that we are 7 weeks and 3 days. We saw a heartbeat -- 141 beats per minute.

Even more amazing? 7 weeks and 3 days was the exact date that we saw little Elijah on ultrasound for the first time. Due, July 24 of 2011.

In 2007 we got Scrubby. In 2008 we held Isaac for the first time. In 2009 we met Elijah. And in 2010 we found out about yet another amazing gift.

Miracles are cool. Thank you, Jesus, for this new little life.

More to come.