Trying to go on vacation

It's late January. 

I've decided I hate farming in January. 

But, we've also decided that as January goes into February, we will, for the second year in a row, get a vacation in a warm wonderful place. 

We are leaving for Belize soon. 

But the act of trying to get to our vacation feels so hard. A big part of me wants to give up. It's too hard. John squeezing all of his work time into his available days means he is working 6 of 7 shifts in a row! That's nearly 80 hours in the Emergency room in a week.

Keep.

Striving.