Meredith

Life has been a bit challenging for me again. God continues to work in me and teach me things. And I'm realizing that those things are very, very painful. For me, they ooze out of me in fits of depression and anxiety. Hard to explain unless you were in my body. But it is what it is, and I'm trying to ride the wave. I did a first bout of this in 2024. It kicked my but royally. I then felt I was "living in freedom" for the second of 2024 and first half of 2025. And now he's peeling back some new things. 

 

I don't want to do this. And yet I see the differences in me after God did it to me the first time. So I'm trying to trust Him. But that is super hard. 

 

I know this is the healing journey. It is loops. I am in a hard loop. I'm praying it's ending. I'm praying I'm on the closing end. But I am going to count it all joy when I enter into hard seasons knowing this is defining my faith. 

 

Last night I spent two hours during youth group at my friend Meredith's house, helping little six-year-old Janessa do a puzzle. I love Meredith. God has blessed me with some great friends. I was blessed that I had a few good hours to sit with my friend.